Friday, February 28, 2014

Reduce, Reuse, Restart [Prose]

Tick tick tick tick tick.

Exotic colors canvased the forest floor, shades so forgotten they no longer had a name in any remaining tongues. The branches of a weeping willow reached out as though to hug the sun, a secret love affair obvious only by the excited flutter of her leaves. The wind was jealous, and howled for attention.

The outdoor museum exhibit was bordered by bright lights that distorted the colors, stealing the sun’s job as though to say it was unneeded. The lights criss-crossed all around the willow's private meadow, some impersonating sunshine while others painted petals nameless hues. A young woman with hair like twisted tree bark stood beyond the exhibit, her fingers curled around the soft velvet rope that separated her from the meadow. The thick roots of the willow snaked towards her, fading beyond existence just before reaching the blockade. Signs of warning swung from the rope: "No trespassing!" "Do not disturb the hologram," "Be wary of wires."

Always protecting the tech.

This was a place of "Once Was;" a landmark memory of Before the world broke. Though she'd only visited on one occasion, her memory held tight to the only image of natural beauty she'd ever seen. It was unmatched by this attempt at imitation.

Her hand rose toward one of the drooping vines, remembering the way the leaves danced toward the soil in a flittering, twirling waltz. Her fingertips met static that sent a trail of goose bumps to race against her skin. The vine rippled at her touch, shattering like fragile glass to show a glimpse of reality behind the charade. A graveyard of shadows and secrets disappeared when she pulled her hand away.

Long curls fell around her porcelain skin, hiding the freckles that older souls said reminded them of stars that glittered the inky night sky Before. The thought of sparkling freckles was as foreign as the sight of the sun. 

She ducked beneath the velvet ropes, stepping through an invisible wall that send static to crawl over the entire span of her skin. Closing her eyes, she waited until the sensation faded, opening them again to see the magnitude of the hologram’s lie.

This meadow was once a gravesite of stumps, remaining as headstones to mark the skeletal roots of the trees that made this forest. The flowers, once a painting of pigments, were wilted and forgotten. The stream that bordered the meadow was now dry, twigs and roots the only reminder of life beneath the ashes. Those roots constituted an intersecting network that connected every being to the Earth. Young souls were supposed to be the spark of an idea to take on the worldwide obligation to save her.

To save Mother Nature.

“A single spark to feed the inferno,” she whispered, stepping closer to the center of the meadow. Instead of the graveyard of stumps she remembered, only a single headstone remained. The shade of the willow’s looming branches was absent, replaced by a smoggy sky. A man sat on the face of the stump, tracing his fingers over the scorched bark. 

Underfoot were the ashes of the last forest Earth ever knew, before Mother Nature’s own children beat her until broken.

“I’ve been here, once,” the woman whispered. The man didn’t raise his head, and she sat beside him against the stump of a willow that could no longer weep. “It was different then.” She sighed, running her fingertips over the cold bark in lazy spirals. “It was alive, then.”

The man said nothing, tracing his tongue over cracked lips as rough as the bark beneath their fingers.

“Do you want to know what happened to the world?”

She nodded, recalling his warning from years ago. This man knew how the world would end, and he informed everyone who would listen. They knew, they all knew. But they didn’t stop the damage until it was done.

Until all that remained were the ashes of an idea that something could be done.

“It wasn’t ignorance. They knew the numbers, compiled them into impressive charts, graphs drawn across the very plant life they swore to save. By 2013, they knew 80% of our forests were gone. Only 2.5% of the water remaining on our planet was available freshwater, and our world population would exceed its capacity within a matter of centuries.”

He sighed, raising his hands. Ten fingers, ten toes…multiplied until too many. “They knew the numbers and could riddle them over their tongues like nursery rhymes. It wasn’t ignorance.

It was arrogance.”

The woman pursed her lips, remembering the statistics they memorized in grade school. How much water was left, the rising population, the toxins they blew into the air. Unapplied to find a solution, the numbers were meaningless.

They knew so much, but did so little.

That didn’t mean they didn’t try.

“What about Earth Day? We made it an entire holiday, to celebrate this planet and promote environmental awareness. We—“

The man laughed; an imitation, like the hologram, of something once inspiring. He scratched at his wrist, where instead of a watch was an hourglass, stitched to a leather strap.

“We gave Earth one day. For one day, we had a masquerade of shame for the mess we’ve made. While the other 364, we let the air boil with our toxin emissions and fill waste into sky-high hills. But oh, don’t forget to reduce, reuse, recycle. Just today. Just one day.”

He scratched at his wrist again, and this time his companion noticed the sand spilling towards the bottom of the glass.

“We’re running out of time,” she whispered, eyes wide. He didn’t take notice when she stood, continuing as though uninterrupted. 

“Do you know the damage a day could do? Or the repair, if we gave Mother Nature the fighting chance. We should give her a People Day and let her poison us with the same smog we spilled into the air!”

The woman continued her way around the meadow, searching through the ashes for a phoenix.

All they needed was a spark.

“One day, we’ll be only bones, sent to sleep in her soil, and she’ll laugh and laugh at the beautiful irony.” He patted the willow’s stump, a sad smile crossing his lips. “That’s if there’s anything left of her to fight. Even a wilted rose has its thorns, but they’re easy enough to burn.

The world would live on without us.”

“No, it wouldn’t.” The woman stood up, pulling her hand from a pile of ashen twigs; the skeletal remains of an aged oak left near the long-dry river hadn’t been burnt. “The world needs her children to fight for her. To plant a new idea, let it establish roots, and have it spread until it touches everything.” She returned to the willow’s stump, running her hand along the wood. “You once told me these roots connected us, made it a worldwide obligation to save the world. Well, roots always start with a seed.”

She opened her palm, revealing a glossy acorn hidden beneath a war zone. The last seed.

The last chance.

“We start small and revive our meadow so people know what nature’s beauty really looks like. The trees we plant will aid in repairing the air, and maybe we’ll see the sun and stars again. We let our roots spread until there’s an entire army of protectors. The more minds, the more seeds that can sprout ideas for repairing our Earth. If every remaining body on Earth were to plant a single tree at some point in their lifetime, the world would be able to regenerate and survive. She could age so beautifully, naturally, if Mother Nature was taken care for by her children.

So what do you say, Father Time? Ready to help Mother Nature?”

There are waves. Moments where the tide pulls up onto shore and cleanses the mess the masses left behind. But then the wave pulls back and you can see it left as much as it took. Seashells, new ideas, changed minds.   

He laughed, twisting the hourglass on his wrist so the sand began to spill again. 

"Reduce, reuse, restart."

Tick tick tick tick tick…

© 2013 | Jazelle Handoush

Mother Nature [Prose]

"She's dying, you know," he whispered, tracing the rough bark under the palm of his hand, an invisible trail that lead to the looming willow's roots forming under his touch.

"Who?" she asked, sitting beside him.

His lips curved into a slight frown, though his brow was furrowed with impatience and annoyance. "Mother Nature."

"We're killing her. She provides us a home, and in thanks we destroy her, skin and bones."

The girl remained silent, thankful for the shade of the weeping willow’s drooping leaves as she curled her finger around one of the vines. A leaf departed from the rest, and she imagined it as a single tear, dropping towards the Earth.

"And they may never get to meet her, the one's who aren't here yet. Won't know her comforting embrace as she shifts the hair from our eyes, or her beaming smile in the radiant warmth. Their eyes will never know her beauty. Only the wreckage and destruction of her aftermath.”

“Her veins are these roots, reaching across lands and connecting us all to one home. She ignores borderlines because there are none; she doesn't differentiate or discriminate by location.”

His hands continued to trace the thick roots resting near-hidden under a blanket of leaves, the vibrant red and orange hues creating their own quilt pattern. The roots snaked their way to another thick tree trunk, though neither could tell what type of tree it belonged to. All that remained now was a stump.

“We’re not the only beings that occupy this space,” he said, kneeling towards the skeletal remains of the tree. Around the base of the stump were thin branches, pinecones, and scattered acorns. “Some poor creatures just had their homes hijacked, so that we may use it instead,” he shook his head in dismay as he stood, slowly leading her towards the edge of the forest.

A brook separated them from the towering city, buildings blocking their view of the sun. A mist was drawn around the town, which seemed cold and unwelcoming in comparison to the vibrant flowers that currently surrounded them. The clear stream rushed against the dark stones that scattered the water’s path, its roaring current breaking the silence.

“I wonder if they’ll know this clarity,” she said, kneeling towards the brook to cup water between her hands. His fingers wrapped around her wrist and pulled it back, and he shook his head.

“They won’t. This will be dry by then. The environmental sciences will become a thin chapter in their history books. Or perhaps there will be an entire book, solely for the history of the planet that once was. A planet they likely won’t occupy.”

“This entire forest will be burned for the land, once the stronger trees are cut,” he said, motioning to his right. “And this brook will be bone dry, the water bottled up and sold. These are no one’s to take, yet they are.”

They walked a bit farther, until the roar of the stream was drowned out by the freeway above.

“We’ve created monsters,” he said, pointing towards the cars as they zoomed past. “Their breath will boil the air.”

“There will be something better, after cars. I’m sure they’re working on it right now. Something not nearly so destructive.”

“These generation’s innovations have been reeked chaos long enough that the damage is done. But they’re not the worst kind of monsters here,” he said, turning his back to the highway as he headed back to the forest. “We are.”

Her head swayed towards the highway, then to the boy, and back again. She frowned, running towards him to catch up.

“We’re killing her,” he repeated, resting once again against the roots of the willow. The girl blinked at him, surprised by the calm in his voice.

“So what do we do? Petition the mayor, hold a rally? There must be something!”

“We warn the children,” he said, stifling a yawn. “Warn them that their children won’t know this place the way we do. That if we take Mother Nature for granted, she will abandon us. Flowers won’t bloom, water will be drained, and this Earth will slowly self-destruct. They need to grow up with that thought drilled into them, so that consideration for a solution is as natural as this forest.”

The wind howled, and the vines above them rustled and swayed as if the looming willow were singing its own sad song.

“Do you hear them?” he whispered, his ears perked towards the sound. The entire forest was suddenly alive with sound; the crunch of leaves as scampering critters ran across the carpeted ground, the plunk of acorns as they hit the hard soil, the chirping birds as they flew with the wind.

“They’re living now, while they still can.”

The girl looked around, seeing the home the forest provided as a whole. Her eyes focused on the roots below, watching them wind a path farther than she could see.

“You said the roots connect us?” she asked, pointing to the snaking trail of the willow’s tubers. She didn’t wait for an answer. “All of us? Without differentiating?”

He nodded, brushing his hand once more against the willow’s roots.

“So this responsibility is all of ours,” she said. “If this Earth is for all of us, then the responsibility must be shared. This is a worldwide obligation.”

“A worldwide obligation to save the world,” he said, smiling.

“Mother will be so pleased.”

© 2012 | Jazelle Handoush
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Thursday, February 27, 2014

The Devil's Snare I [Poetry]

You can do what you can
To find your way
Into my system
But let that thought
Hold as a delusion.
My soul is untouched by your corrupt hand
And only a single shadow holds my heart.
The burning I feel merely licks at my skin,
A temporary sensation of your sin
You can do what you’d like
Burn, touch, bruise
But I won’t feel a single scar
Now that I have so much to lose.

© 2013 | Jazelle Handoush

Love Is Sold Separately [Poetry]

I hate the idea of falling in love with you,
Of losing myself, my mind, my individuality,
And so take on the role of a half
Instead of alone, being a whole.
As if I require another to be complete
As though love is a necessity to be happy
Instead of an additional part sold separately.
They say without it,
Side effects include loneliness, depression, anxiety
And the subsequent diagnosis of S.A.D.--
Single Awareness Daily.
As if a toy, a playmate, fills in every other missing
Puzzle piece we're convinced we've lost.
Wrong.
The only side effect I'm experiencing
Is the mass impact society has
On messing with the mind:
Lovers aren't happier,
They're simply blind.

© 2013 | Jazelle Handoush

The Star-Studded Muse [Poetic Prose]

Stars used to always stick to her tongue and pop against her gums, but now when she licks the sugarcoated stardust from her lips, the world wants nothing more than to take a taste with a kiss. Every night she downs a cocktail of constellations, and they never taste the same. Tonight she swallows Bellatrix, savoring stars bit by bit, and hoping not to choke on the bottom dregs of the Milky Way, so thick. She’s been prescribed planets to fight the ailment of her misalignment, because sometimes being in retrograde spins her mind into an unwanted mess. And it knocks those around her out of step (a cause and effect).

She’s been diagnosed with a starry-eyed disease, caused by an overdose on the black holes that have eaten at her insides. Her constellation cocktails fill all these empty holes with stars that get sucked in, and they show against her soul. On an entire different level of gravity, she can make you feel like you’re floating and chocking. Between the sunspots in her eyes and the crescent moon in her smile, she’s a planetary mess of mental-made voids; there’s empty space among the galaxy clusters of her cognizance that make her a mystery. Undefined by astronomers, no telescope could keep her close, until one night she comes by as a comet and shows herself.

In mythology, gods shown in the stars step down to Earth to share a kiss with mere mortals. She, made of dust and fueled by constellations, shows herself in form of shadow. Wearing Saturn’s rings and a dress of space silk, upon the earth she steps, bits of ideas are left.

When she shares kisses with mere mortals, they’re in form of secrets. Inspirations sparked from the swallowed stars steal into her veins and sit at her fingertips and lips.

That peck upon the cheek you sense but never see? Her hello, solidified to start a story in your mind. The chill against your spine is meant to bring your brush upon a canvas to make it blush, or pull notes from empty air and compose a masterpiece for all to hear.

She’s been diagnosed with a starry-eyed disease, caused by an overdose of black holes that have eaten at her insides. She downs constellation cocktails to keep her sane, hiding in earth’s shadows or the space between the stars.

Aiding your inspiration is her detox, and it makes her divine.

© 2014 | Jazelle Handoush

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Sunday, February 23, 2014

For The Survivors [Poetry]

I live for the writers,
the ink stainers,
the survivors.
The ones who hold a pen in their hands and scrawl out a story
are the ones who have lived past the worry and woe to write out a warning.
A warning to the ones who haven't lived in that moment
when love breaks a heart beyond the protective confines of a ribcage,
when suffering scatters scars against skin and turns the innocent into warriors,
when life makes us hopeless, when all we want is rest.
I live for the ones who have ink on their arms,
who are staining themselves with not only their stories,
but the words of those who can't speak.
I live for the voiceless, so they can be heard, instead of ignored, 
instead of silenced.
I live for the ones seeking words that spark a little bit of hope
back into humanity.
I live to write the idea of change into someone's mind.
Sometimes, though, I need help.
I need a voice
and I need time.

© 2014 | Jazelle Handoush

I'll Save Myself [Six Word Story]

Even in distress
I'm nobody's damsel.

© 2014 | Jazelle Handoush

Friday, February 21, 2014

The Survival Story [Poetry]


Heading east of the full moon,
     my paintbrush stains the inky expanse with stars
sticking stories across a canvas in lusty light.

The tell tales not of the gods, but human heroes
     who save sad souls with the mere power of voice,
of well-spoken words, prettied poetry, and the prose of their plights.

They saved humanity by admitting they survived.

Scars stain their skin, but they can't be seen
     amongst the stars I use
to sketch their stories.

So when a suffering soul looks and seeks the remaining woe,
     stashed away in Pandora's box like a secret,
they'll see, east of the full moon, the constellation containing it:

Hope

sticking to my inky stained canvas with an imperishable ink.

© 2014 | Jazelle Handoush

Deadlier Than A Dementor [Six Word Story]

Your kiss,
such sadness,
could kill.

© 2014 | Jazelle Handoush

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Always So Close [Haiku]

Do you blush at the
proximity, our pounding
hearts inches from tryst?

© Jazelle Handoush

Melted Hearts [Haiku]

In the moon's lush light
Our love is a fervid flame
But by day it fades

© Jazelle Handoush

Monday, February 17, 2014

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Saturday, February 15, 2014

Tears Shine Like Stars [Poetry]

She hides the tears in her eyes so well now, that even when
they streak her skin, they shine like stars. Because at least she's feeling
something. At least her heart is still beating, at least her will is still
fighting strong. Don't make up the connotation for tears to mean weakness,
or pain, or unprecedented suffering. Tears are the body flexing
another muscle. They're a symbol of humanity, not the visual of
a broken being.
She hides the tears in her eyes because you misunderstand their meaning.
The streak of a tear isn't a crack to her porcelain skin;
its a symbol that she's surviving this fucked up world we're in.

© 2014 | Jazelle Handoush

The Monster In Me [Prose Excerpt]

[Excerpt from Blood Ties]

“You don’t see it love, do you? The way this whole hunts made you inta a, a…”
“Say it!”
Nox looked her straight in the eye. The spark he had once seen was entirely gone, the bird who had once teased him long faded. Now there was just this shell of a human. It was like her soul had been stripped. “Inta a monster,” he said, running his fingers through his brown hair. “I don’ know you anymore, pet. An’ I’m tired of watching you self destruct.”
Alaska’s hands curling into fists; it was always her first instinct to punch Nox, but now the rage was different. It was fueled, the fire in her rising towards something uncontrollable. Her hunger for revenge was a dangerous obsession. One she wasn’t ready to let go of yet.
“You never fucking knew me!” she screamed, pushing Nox back. “I’ve always been a damn game to you. That’s all this is, right? A fucking mystery you want to solve? ‘Oye, who butchered the pets parents. Let’s fin’ out!” She mimicked his accent, but it came out messy in her anger. Alaska shoved him back again, this time into the cafe wall. A few chairs fell down around them.
The only light was the streetlamp that pooled in through the windows. Nox had called her over after closing, but she hadn’t expected this. An intervention.
Nox grabbed her wrists and held them up for her to see. “Look,” he said, shaking them. “Look!” Alaska glared at him, refusing to glance down at her palms. “Do you want blood on your hands?” he asked, grasping her tighter. “Because that’s where this is gonna go if you continue at this rate, love. I’ve seen you fight. I’ve been on the end of your blows.” Alaska pulled her hands away and shoved Nox back again. This time he stayed.
“You can’t stop anymore, can you?” he asked. “The rage takes over, and you have no control over it. I’ve seen the look in your eyes. I’ve seen the monster in you.” Nox sighed and stepped forward, his voice dropping. “You need to let go,” he practically whispered.
It was the change in his tone, that pity she heard, that made Alaska turn on her heel and kick him back. “Don’t fucking tell me what to do, Nox,” she said, staring down at him as he slouched to the floor. His hand covered his side, but his eyes remained fixed on hers.
“Maybe there is a monster in me,” she said, her hands pulled into fists once again. “Maybe that’s what I need. I’m going up against a monster, maybe I need to become one to fight him.” Alaska scowled. Of all people, Nox should understand. His parents died the exact same way, by the same hands. All she was doing was trying to hunt the monster who killed them.
“I’d rather be a monster than the weak little girl he took advantage of,” she said, turning her back to Nox. Alaska crossed the room and reached for the door. “If you stop me,” she started, not looking back. “I’ll stop you first.”
Her shadow walked in front of her, and Nox could have sworn its footsteps were separate from Alaska’s.
The bell chimed through the room, and then there was nothing but darkness.

© 2014 | Jazelle Handoush

The Black Hole [Six Word Story]

Cupid, my heart
can't be pierced.

© 2014 | Jazelle Handoush

Friday, February 14, 2014

February Air [Poetry]

Dregs of coffee
leave an omen
at the bottom of a cold cup;
February air
brings lackluster love
& frigid hearts,
making candor out of ardor.


Copyright 2014 | Jazelle Handoush

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Uneven Effects [Six Word Story]

My heart broke;
Why didn't yours?

Insomniac Strangers [Poetic Prose]

I’m looking for an insomniac stranger, a soul that never sleeps, and so it keeps its host restless into hours when the sky is painted with murky ink, the heat of passion shining through like sticky bits of glitter.

I’m looking for an artist so controlled by their talent, that his fingertips itch when he’s without pen for too long, or his hand feels like a stump without the extended digit of his paintbrush. Who dreams of new ways to speak with his soul to mass audiences that feign their understanding of such a fervid psyche. 

I’m looking for someone who inspires me. Who has such a rare quality of ambiguous beauty that I’m left staring, pen posed at the ready despite knowing that no word exists to personify his exquisite enigma. A force I’ll never been able to solidify with my ink, though I swear I’ll try. They say some beauties aren’t meant to be defined.

I’m looking for someone to make me into a muse. Take me beyond this skin and corporeal penitentiary, melt me into ink and brush me against their canvas. Swirl my shadows with those sticky sparks, until stars freckle the form of my face and brighten my eyes.

Until I’m the passion that keeps him restless, soul stirring with insomnia so we can paint the sky a shade of our inspiration.

Copyright 2014 | Jazelle Handoush

Carefully Choreographed [Photogenic Pieces]

Carefully Choreographed [Photogenic Pieces]

© 2014 | Jazelle Handoush

The Next Life [Poetic Prose]

I have nightmares of dying.
I know that’s supposed to mean that something is bound to change, but nothing ever does.
My ribcage is pried open so my heart can be reached, and the veins are snipped away with the scissors of a Fate sister. Blood red wine spills across my porcelain skin, and I see their eager eyes, as if they’re thirsting for a drop.
Vultures, circling broken lovers.
My soul is stolen next, though not entirely. Ripping it away is too difficult a feat, and the echoes of my screams go on for an eternity. The wisps are stretched into string, so my soul can be used to sow a story into the next life I live.
Maybe when I love, then, it won’t be a mistake.

Copyright 2014 | Jazelle Handoush

Monday, February 10, 2014

Both Ignorant Of The Idea [Poetry]

I know falling in love with you was a mistake since the sight of you
still makes my heart break.
You haven't the slightest the way my heart flutters with the vibrations
of my phone, from a simple text to interrupt the silence I caused
because I was afraid your absence meant that I wasn't missed.
You're clueless to the way my lips shape your name like a word
unsaid ever before, new to the tongue like a song I've never sung yet
I don't stutter over the syllables.
I'm sure you're even ignorant to the mess my imagination makes of
even the inkling that you might feel the same way, just like I'm ignorant
to the way the sight of me silently makes your heart break.

Copyright 2014 | Jazelle Handoush

Messier Ink [Poetry]

My lips are stained crimson from the words that have spilled from them;
nasty verbal knives to slash at still-beating hearts.
No one told me, growing up, that even without a weapon,
I would be a warrior.
No one warned me that life was war, and that when blood spills,
it smears as you clean it up.
I take to the battlefield with pen in hand, unprepared 
for the fight required to keep me standing.
Someone once told me there's more than one way to fight;
with words, and with weapons.
I don't believe the pen is mightier than the sword,
just not as messy.
We both use different shades of ink; I spill mine on pages,
and you spill yours on pavement.
No one told me, growing up, that my arch-enemy
would be the one I love.
No one warned me that love was war, and at the end of the battle
both hearts would be sore. 

Copyright 2014 | Jazelle Handoush

Between Thunder and Lightning [Poetry]

My mouth is still humming, buzzing with the sound of bees who
have left something so sweet against my lips. An electric kiss that sends
a current through me, leaving me dizzy with static at my fingertips and
liquid lava in my veins. No one said love was going to be a natural disaster.
No one said it would leave a storm inside of me, building, building, until 
BAM.
All over.
Is it called a calm before the storm only because its quiet? Because
I swear I can hear my heart thrumming, rumbling, picking up speed
until the first bolt flashes in the sky. All of that, just before the kiss, before
your lips meet mine.
No one told me that a fierce fire would warm my heart with a warning
of an inferno that can burn love to the ground.
I had to learn to count the quiet
between the echo of a heartbeat and an unexpected kiss.
Because in those few seconds
that's when my life was bliss.

Copyright 2014 | Jazelle Handoush

Mess To Masterpiece [Poetry]

You poured ink onto my skin and said,
"This is what you are.
A mess.”
But I contradicted your claim
and used that ink to twirl black holes and starry cosmoses
across my arms
to make the mess into a masterpiece;
an art.

Copyright 2014 | Jazelle Handoush